Fallow times
of great growth has Spring pushing in me. The cold with the springs promise - between places. I love shifting
spaces, it reminds me of my own internal landscape that has the winds blowing
through and altering the dunes of my being.
To live with the
seasons being able to flow into and around me has been one of the greatest
gifts that I have ever given myself. I cannot even imagine that I was owned by
a large corporation 3 years ago. I felt boxed, limited, controlled, and was so
often in “trouble” because I refused to be a sheeple.
The past week I have
been so thrilled by the storms hitting the Cape. I dared to go down to the
beach when I knew that rain was sweeping across the ocean. I’ve learned to read
the speed at which wild rains approach (always quicker than you think!) but
still I dared. I dared to feel the biting cold because the Ocean called me. I
stood before her magnificence, closed my eyes… her booming voice of a thousand
memories reverberated through my heart. I opened my eyes, and the salt from me
dripped onto the beach. It was tempting to lie on the wet sand and just let the
storm come and wash over me. Cold and wet did not have its appeal that day
though. I turned and did not look back or rather across my porch till I reached
home… just in time.
I read something this
week that really stirred me. It was all about risk, we are here to do this in
increments or large forms… I would like to share what I read. It lives in me:
"Life will break
you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for
solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to
feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart.
You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or
betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple
tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their
sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could." Louise Erdrich
from The Painted Drum.
Dare, face any storm
you wish, and feel the between spaces in your hearts limbs…
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