"Gayatri
playing, sound of sweet life and my joy rises, the sun caressing,
clouds loving the mountains, I can feel their misty selves...I
am...Living Alive"
Recent events have shown me that there is hope – regarding the
measurement of growth. About 15 years ago I was this angry lesbian that hated
the way that her path went. Like so many women (of my age it seems – over 40’s)
we chose to marry and have children, simply because there seemed no hope to
meet that woman we know that we ached for. When I was a teen growing up the
word lesbian was spoken in hushed whispers. Oh but I KNEW who I was (and am)
some girls had me fantasising and the usual – it seems, crush on the stunning
PT teacher. I get hot all over even now when I think of her. I remember being
fascinated by a young woman about 2 grades ahead of me, she had a motor bike –
not a vespa, had short hair and walked with a certain swagger. I was like a
ruddy bunny in headlights when she walked past.
And the teasing at school, oh are you lessie because you don’t have a
boyfriend? Well yes, I am. The hunger in me was never slaked as their was no
woman that I could experiment with. So I turned my considerable sexual energy
and got what any straight girl would want, plenty of attention… but it was
never right was it. Then I still went and got married, had my two beautiful
daughters. And then one day, when I was at my lowest – my x-husband walked in
and announced that he had found the perfect friend for me.
Well she turned out to be what I had been hungering for all that time,
28 and my first real woman that felt the same way for me. But all the time I
had this simmering resentment about so many things.
My mentally abusive marriage, the fact that I never had a chance to
experiment, my lover so deep in the closet that she to this day has never come
out. Yes so heavens was I an angry woman taking on everyone’s non sense and
internalising it with my own stuff. Building up to explosion point. There came
a time when the person who was a practicing Wiccan in me said WHOA, stop – and
I began the long slow trip to really facing myself. It has not been easy but
some recent events had my sister point out how strong and the compassion I have
developed. Hell I am not perfect, I hurt still as I seem to keep choosing what
I cannot have and still need a break through there.
I have had a few start stop relationships, some not even going
anywhere near physical, what I learned from my most recent beautiful sacred
relationship is when you can stand and say, hey that’s your stuff and its not
mine, and view it from a non egoist point of view then you know that you’re on
the way to becoming a 100% you.
How can we all reach this? It takes time my beautiful ones but here is a
breakdown of a recipe that I have used that comes from one of the current most
amazing teachers whom I have the deep pleasure of actually meeting. Combined
with my own practices I have managed to learn something and sometimes a glimmer
is shown and I am shown that I can sometimes get it right. I have taken it
directly from a website called http://zenhabits.net/2007/06/a-guide-to-cultivating-compassion-in-your-life-with-7-practices/
The key to developing compassion in your life is to make it a daily
practice.
Meditate upon it in the morning (you can do it while checking email),
think about it when you interact with others, and reflect on it at night. In
this way, it becomes a part of your life. Or as the Dalai Lama also said, “This
is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated
philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is
kindness.”
Benefits
Why develop compassion in your life? Well, there are scientific studies that
suggest there are physical benefits to practicing compassion — people who practice
it produce 100 percent more DHEA, which is a hormone that counteracts the aging
process, and 23 percent less cortisol — the “stress hormone.”
But there are other benefits as well, and these are emotional and
spiritual. The main benefit is that it helps you to be more happy, and brings
others around you to be more happy. If we agree that it is a common aim of each
of us to strive to be happy, then compassion is one of the main tools for
achieving that happiness. It is therefore of utmost importance that we
cultivate compassion in our lives and practice compassion every day.
How do we do that? This guide contains 7 different practices that you
can try out and perhaps incorporate into your every day life.
7 Compassion Practices
- Morning
ritual. Greet each morning with a ritual. Try this one, suggest by the
Dalai Lama: “Today I am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a
precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my
energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others, to achieve
enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind
thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about
others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can.” Then, when you’ve
done this, try one of the practices below.
- Empathy
Practice. The first step in cultivating compassion is to develop empathy
for your fellow human beings. Many of us believe that we have empathy, and
on some level nearly all of us do. But many times we are centered on
ourselves (I’m no exception) and we let our sense of empathy get rusty.
Try this practice: Imagine that a loved one is suffering. Something
terrible has happened to him or her. Now try to imagine the pain they are
going through. Imagine the suffering in as much detail as possible. After
doing this practice for a couple of weeks, you should try moving on to
imagining the suffering of others you know, not just those who are close
to you.
- Commonalities
practice. Instead of recognizing the differences between yourself and others,
try to recognize what you have in common. At the root of it all, we are
all human beings. We need food, and shelter, and love. We crave attention,
and recognition, and affection, and above all, happiness. Reflect on these
commonalities you have with every other human being, and ignore the
differences. One of my favorite exercises comes from a great article from
Ode Magazine — it’s a five-step exercise to try when you meet friends and
strangers. Do it discreetly and try to do all the steps with the same
person. With your attention geared to the other person, tell yourself:
- Step
1: “Just like me, this person is seeking happiness in his/her life.”
- Step
2: “Just like me, this person is trying to avoid suffering in his/her
life.”
- Step
3: “Just like me, this person has known sadness, loneliness and despair.”
- Step
4: “Just like me, this person is seeking to fill his/her needs.”
- Step
5: “Just like me, this person is learning about life.”
- Relief
of suffering practice. Once you can empathize with another person, and understand his
humanity and suffering, the next step is to want that person to be free
from suffering. This is the heart of compassion — actually the definition
of it. Try this exercise: Imagine the suffering of a human being you’ve
met recently. Now imagine that you are the one going through that
suffering. Reflect on how much you would like that suffering to end.
Reflect on how happy you would be if another human being desired your
suffering to end, and acted upon it. Open your heart to that human being
and if you feel even a little that you’d want their suffering to end,
reflect on that feeling. That’s the feeling that you want to develop. With
constant practice, that feeling can be grown and nurtured.
- Act of
kindness practice. Now that you’ve gotten good at the 4th practice, take the
exercise a step further. Imagine again the suffering of someone you know
or met recently. Imagine again that you are that person, and are going
through that suffering. Now imagine that another human being would like
your suffering to end — perhaps your mother or another loved one. What
would you like for that person to do to end your suffering? Now reverse
roles: you are the person who desires for the other person’s suffering to
end. Imagine that you do something to help ease the suffering, or end it
completely. Once you get good at this stage, practice doing something
small each day to help end the suffering of others, even in a tiny way.
Even a smile, or a kind word, or doing an errand or chore, or just talking
about a problem with another person. Practice doing something kind to help
ease the suffering of others. When you are good at this, find a way to
make it a daily practice, and eventually a throughout-the-day practice.
- Those
who mistreat us practice. The final stage in these compassion
practices is to not only want to ease the suffering of those we love and
meet, but even those who mistreat us. When we encounter someone who
mistreats us, instead of acting in anger, withdraw. Later, when you are
calm and more detached, reflect on that person who mistreated you. Try to
imagine the background of that person. Try to imagine what that person was
taught as a child. Try to imagine the day or week that person was going
through, and what kind of bad things had happened to that person. Try to
imagine the mood and state of mind that person was in — the suffering that
person must have been going through to mistreat you that way. And
understand that their action was not about you, but about what they were
going through. Now think some more about the suffering of that poor
person, and see if you can imagine trying to stop the suffering of that
person. And then reflect that if you mistreated someone, and they acted
with kindness and compassion toward you, whether that would make you less
likely to mistreat that person the next time, and more likely to be kind
to that person. Once you have mastered this practice of reflection, try
acting with compassion and understanding the next time a person treats
you. Do it in little doses, until you are good at it. Practice makes
perfect.
- Evening
routine. I highly recommend that you take a few minutes before you go to
bed to reflect upon your day. Think about the people you met and talked
to, and how you treated each other. Think about your goal that you stated
this morning, to act with compassion towards others. How well did you do?
What could you do better? What did you learn from your experiences today?
And if you have time, try one of the above practices and exercises.
These compassionate practices can be done anywhere, any time. At work,
at home, on the road, while traveling, while at a store, while at the home of a
friend or family member. By sandwiching your day with a morning and evening
ritual, you can frame your day properly, in an attitude of trying to practice
compassion and develop it within yourself. And with practice, you can begin to
do it throughout the day, and throughout your lifetime.
This, above all, with bring happiness to your life and to those around
you.
You can use these wise words anyway you like and combine it with
whatever path you have, I know it works because I am not the angry person I was
15 years ago.
Namaste Beautiful Ones
